The
Lonely Soul of Happiness
(Poems)
-Afshan
Asad Junaid
Just Because I was a Human Being
I was
sitting under the hollow oak.
She
chanced to pass by.
I
lifted her to my palm.
Her
eyes were full of contempt
As she
glared at me,
Just
because I was a human being.
On
questioning I was told
That I
was selfish, mean and heartless,
Ready
to suck the blood of my
Fellow
beings- like a leach,
Just
because I was a human being.
She
refused my hand of friendship
Without
a thought.
She
didn’t trust me.
She boasted
and was right when she said
‘We are
one.
At
least we share whatever we have.
Never
letting our kith and kin go hungry.
Whilst
you are on the contrary,
Just
because you are a human being.’
She
walked away so coolly.
Still
singing her praises; leaving me weak, helpless and ashamed.
Fancy
me being mocked by an ANT
… Just
because I was a human being!
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He Doesn’t Have a Point to Prove
He
feeds you with no intellectual philosophies.
He
talks of life’s basics and simple things.
He
cares not a damn about the ozone layer’s hole
…or if
the global temperature rose.
He
cares for daily bread alone.
‘Who
attacked whom?’
Is none
of his concern…
Iraq,
Palestine, Armenia, Egypt,
Ukraine, Syria, Sudan or Serbia…
He has
to battle daily through life.
He
doesn’t care two hoots
Whether
leaves transpire or respire
He has
to sweat hard to survive.
He’s
bother not a bit about the extinction of whales.
His
roof drips during rains.
His
concern isn’t the Arms race.
His
feet have blisters and no shoes.
Who is
he?
He
himself wouldn’t know
…Black,
red, yellow or white!
What is
he there for?
He
doesn’t know-
He
doesn’t have a point to prove.
Ecstasy
Happiness
has strange
and
funny ways!
You
keep hunting
for it
all over.
It just
never seems
to come to you
Endless
hours of efforts
and wait
Go totally
futile
and waste.
Then
suddenly it decides to pop up and out
Peeping
like a child
From a
remote corner
To fill
your heart
with
everlasting joy
and
then it knows no bounds.
At
times like that you wonder
Where
did it hide all this time?
And now
from where has it just appeared
Without
a reason or rhyme!
Or, has
it been all along?
…And
you just didn’t realize!!!
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Beautiful Day
The
birds are chirping,
The sun
is bright.
The sky
is blue,
with
plenty of light.
The
pigeons so happy
The robins so gay.
It is
no doubt
A
Beautiful Day!
The
world is peaceful.
No sign
of war.
All
humans are happy.
Be near
or far.
Children
all smiling,
With
safety supreme,
It’s
definitely possible.
It’s
not a dream.
The Lonely Soul of Happiness
The
world- It’s so huge.
But
then,
It
has no place for me!
The people in it…
Have
to manage their jobs.
My
family is so busy!
My
friends far too lazy..
My
acquaintances won’t ever be more than that.
My
relatives won’t proceed from their idle chit chat.
The
world- it is so vast.
But
then,
It
has no place for me!
How
long can someone be ignored
And
remain isolated from the rest?
How
long can one be overlooked
Though
one’s trying the very best?
Why
in the world am I so brief?
Why
such pain, agony and grief?
The
world- It’s so large.
But
then,
It
has no place for me!
And
yet, I keep on keeping on
…and
will just never give up.
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Support
The
thorns need the stem
Roots-
soil.
The
stars need the sky.
Men-
toil.
The
leaves need the branches
Rivers-
bed.
The
valleys need mountains.
Animals-shed.
Support
and protection is
fundamental
for existence.
A
Peaceful earth is vital
for
human sustenance.
So,
What
are we going to do about it?
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The River
I
adore the river
Just
as I adore you.
So,
it’s for you to infer
How
much I care for you.
The
swift flowing water
That’s
a massive river!
White,
pure as milk
Blue,
smooth as silk.
I
love each stone
That
gives it the appearance.
I
love each mountain
Responsible
for its existence.
It
laughs and giggles
It
roars and trickles.
If
you ever chance to peep
You’ll
also love the river deep.
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The Yellow Tree
Amongst
all of them
It
stands out by itself.
Yes
yellow…
Among
all the green.
Beaten
down by the autumn winds
Its
leaves withering away
Leaving
it bare and feeble
Hither
and thither they sway.
“Come,
shade ‘n’ help me,” it creaks
With no
one to care.
It
stands there for granted
Ignored
by the fair.
The
blooming flowers of the others
How
they mock at it!
‘Hey!
You’re the odd one out…
We’ve
got nothing to share!’
So
there it’s standing
Waiting
for a friendly face.
In that
arrogant valley
-such a
thing is rare.
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Lost
Don’t
know where I lost myself
Some
distant past
Some
distant time
…just
lost myself.
Gone
are days of spontaneity
The
giggles, the laughter,
Having the
sheer joy
…
of being together.
Trying
hard to be or not to be
Someone
I’m not,
And can never be…
I
just lost myself.
They
tell me “You laugh no more,
You
aren’t yourself.
You
talk not how it used to be…
What
can I say- “I lost myself!”
To
strong arms
And
strange ways
Of
pretence…
Arrogance,
ignorance.
In
a world unknown that’s now my own
A
way of life I so despise
of
gossip, lies and idle talk
I’m
lost…and that’s a sad demise.
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Return
The fear
in me is growing strong,
That
you’ll be mine no more.
I look
solicitously out of my window-
Wanting,
waiting for you.
But all
I see is a bare, dreary yard.
My eyes
ache for your sight.
And then
when I see you-
You
have your back towards me
And you
are constantly moving on
So
far away from me…
Not
turning back to look
at
my flooded red eyes.
Then
suddenly you swagger
Out
of my sight –forever.
And
then I’m left all by myself
..lonely,
isolated, forlorn.
Still
looking at the path
You
moved on- a little while ago-
In
the hope that you’ll return on the same path
And
ask me once more to fill your vacant heart – forever.
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A Special Someone
May I
tell you what you are?
You are
understanding, talented and funny,
My
darling! You’re a jar of honey.
Equitable,
kind, decent and loving,
Adorable,
profound, witty and caring.
Rare,
sagacious, noble and friendly,
Earnest,
true, helpful and lovely.
So much
more there is to say that
Words
are lacking in every way.
Magnificent
friend, if only you knew
Oration
is not appropriate for you.
I can
go on for hours about your grace,
Presence
of yours, lights up every face.
Do
never change from what you are.
You
profess happiness near and afar.
You are
someone special to me.
Questions
What is
it that always makes me miss you?
What is
it that makes me feel jealous?
What is
it that makes my feelings so obvious?
What’s
within me wanting to be closer to you?
What’s
within me longing for your love and you?
What’s
there making me all the more possessive?
What’s
making me sick of myself… always so pensive?
What
makes me so incomplete…needing your constant help?
What is
it that makes me so emotional when I don’t want to?
What is
it that soothes my mind whenever I think of you?
What
makes me want to tell you all my thoughts?
What
makes me want to submit myself to all your NOTs?
What is
it that often makes me so lively?
What is
it that makes me place you so highly?
There
is hope in my mind
You’ll
always be kind.
Answering
all my quests
Freeing
my mind of all such tests.
I Ask for Your Love
When
I’m disappointed, distressed and frustrated,
My only
want is –Your Love.
I need
your shoulder to lean on to,
All I
long for is –Your Love.
I need
you!!
I need
to share my happiness with you.
My
earnest request is- Your Love.
I can’t
endure anguish and despair.
I only
desire- Your Love.
My only
fear is repudiation.
Do
promise me- Your Love!
My Precious Love
You’re
a treasure
I
keep forever,
You’re
a spring
That
always blooms,
You’re
an ocean
That
dries up never
You’re
far too precious for me, my love.
You’re
a valley
-evergreen.
You’re
a mountain
-stable
forever.
You’re
as valuable
-as aquamarine.
You’re
far too precious for me, my love.
You’re
unique
-with
amazing physique.
You’re
far too precious for me, my love.
Your Eyes
They
are expressive.
The
depths of your being are revealed in them.
Your
sharp intellect
They
reflect.
The
way you make jokes…
They
laugh.
They
are at their best when wet…
They
are adorned.
When
you smile genuinely
They
twinkle.
They
are astonished and seem so…
They
are inquiring.
They
love to be aware…
They
are inquisitive.
They
are much better than you
At
least they show what they feel.
I
can see in them clearly…
The
love you bear for me.
They
are serious and thoughtful…
They
are beautiful!
Without You
The
mountains will not seem Royal anymore,
The
chirping birds- will have no melody,
The
enchanting rainbow- I’ll no more adore.
This
place is going to be so horrible.
The
deception, emptiness of people is unbearable.
The
fun and frolic vanishing
It’ll
be an awful thing.
Your
thoughts so intensely will cloud my mind.
Your
love, care and friendship, I’ll never forget
…You
are just ONE OF A KIND!
I
hope not to be ever forgotten
As
friends that are true –are impossible to find.
With
a smile on my face I shall bid you Goodbye.
Though
in my heart… I’ll surely cry.
Without
you
this
world will be
beautiful no more!
Repentance
All
I’ve ever given you is –tears.
All
I’ve done is –induce pain.
All
I did was- make you feel defeated.
My
gifts- so striking- how can you like me?
My
doubts- never ending-How do you forgive me?
My
friendship- is a remarkable test of patience.
I
couldn’t ever cope with a friend like ‘me’.
I
apologize for the numerous times
I’ve
failed to make you happy.
My
sadistic tendencies overpowered me.
How
I hate myself for my complexes
Weaknesses,
drawbacks and my
Totally
pessimistic nature.
Only
ungrateful and wicked people
Make
caring and loving friend suffer so much
…And
that’s what I used to do.
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Had I Known
Had
I known- there’s someone wonderful
I’d
have loved my life.
Had
I known- there’s someone who needs me
I’d
have treasured it.
Had
I known- that I’m much loved
I’d
be solitary no more.
Had
I known, Oh! Had I known…
I’d
have done so much.
Nothing
is lost in knowing now,
today,
this very minute.
Everything
that could have been
Could
still be a possibility…
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Wishes
There
is a time when you want but cannot get.
There
is a time when you want but cannot give.
There
is a time when you want but cannot go.
There
is a time when you want but cannot call.
In such
times what do you do?
There
is a place where you want but cannot be.
There
is a place where you want but cannot build.
There
is a place where all is perfect,
Just as
you want it to be…
Where
do you find such a place?
There
is a moment when you feel you want to fly.
There
is a moment when you feel you want to cry.
There
is a moment when you feel the world must end up now.
How do
you wait for that moment?
There
is a person you think about, oft in your dreams.
A
person like whom, one before has never been.
There
is a person you want so much to understand.
When do
you find such a person?
There
is a goal you’re aiming for.
There is
a soul you’re yearning for.
There
is a moment you’re waiting for.
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My First Love
He is
my first love…
I’ve
never told him so.
I’ve
never talked in this regard
And
I’ll never let him know.
I
cannot account for the date and time
It
happened in a trance.
Amazing!
How quickly I lost my heart
It’s
all a matter of chance.
There
is no point in praising him
He is
too good for words.
Now
everything seems nice to me
even
the chirping birds.
I do
not see him often now..
fate
playing its tricks on me.
I never
knew I’ll miss him so
But,
that’s how it turned out to be.
I
really wish I could somehow know
Of what
he thinks of me
Not
that it’ll make a difference to me
… my
love’s as deep as the sea.
I dream
of him so often now
And
wake up with a start.
Each
passing day confirms again
My
first love will be my last.
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Love You
He said
he loved me!
Believe
it or not…
After
the longest wait ever!
At the
time I needed it most.
Didn’t
I say he’s most considerate?
Wasn’t
I sure he’s understanding?
Come to
think of it…
I’d
lost all hope.
A time
I was sure he’d say
‘Oh!
Let’s forget it all.
Never
mind, that’s what’s our fate……’
Hey
Grand! He finally said
The
words I longed to hear…
He said
he loved me!!
Times
There
are times
When I
sit and wonder
What I
have done.
Times
when I look back
..at
days gone by.
I must
be very lucky
To have
you for a friend.
There
are times
When I
feel
On top
of the world!
Times
when there is
Brightness
all around.
In my
head I often fly
My feet
above the ground.
Those
are signs of the greatest joy
Felt
only when friends are true.
I am a
blessed soul in the truest sense
To have
a friend like you.
Love Struck
You are
sometimes so happy
That
you want to touch the clear blue sky.
You
want to capture the rainbow
In your
arms and make it fly.
You’re
sometimes so desperate
That
you don’t know what to do.
Your
heart feels like bursting
And
makes you feel so very blue.
You are
sometimes so excited
That
you want the whole world to know
You
emit happiness and want no one
To ever
feel low.
You are
sometimes so sad that
You
want to cry out loud.
Can’t
endure the sorrow and pain
Your
mind is in a cloud.
You’re
sometimes so kind that
You
give away all that you possess.
To
fulfill everyone and
See no
one at any duress.
When
you feel all that
Just
understand that you’re LOVE STRUCK!
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Memories
Strange
are you- Oh Memories!
You
haunt me all the time.
Bringing
with you each moment vividly
You
make me smile, you smirk at me.
You
make me cry, you cry with me.
Memories-
why are you there?
To
prick at my shattered feelings
To
bring back all the pain
To
intensify my desires
When I
know it’s all in vain.
Strange
are those experiences
Seldom
satisfying.
Hitting
hard at my ego.
Yet
pleasant sometimes.
Reliving
every moment
Tears
my heart apart
Those
words that I have uttered
Are the
last ones to depart…
Can I
throw you away- Oh memories!
Why do
I nurture you so true?
You
strengthen me at times
At
others cripple me through and through.
I try
the level best in me to push you far away.
Instead,
you steadfast in me- with every passing day.
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Cherish
Sit
back awhile.
Close
your eyes to the crowded world
Think
of me.
All the
nice things we’ve said together
The
memories we shared
Think
of those and many more
That
happened to you before.
Like
the cool breeze of the morning
When
you went out for a walk
The
warmth that the first sunbeam brings
The
relentless love- of your shadow.
You’ll
feel much better, I know
Like
when you chance upon a rainbow.
Visualize
the things you like best
The
people you adore
And all
the loneliness will fizzle away
Like
the big round bubbles you blow.
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Aren’t
you a weird kind of a person?
Yes, I
wonder quite often.
Everything
you do has a difference.
They
say, ‘Each person is unique.’
But,
are you not queer?
When
you make a friend
Or you
think you have.
You
shower all affection.
If you
respect someone
You
want to give your all.
When
you feel you’re wanted somewhere
You try
be there for as long and more.
If
certain things seem to need your time
You’re
patient till YOU are a patient.
Your
sensitivity
Is
absurdity
-In
today’s selfish world.
And yet
you just keep going on..
No
wonder “You are weird!”
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Love Letter
On the
eve of Valentine Day
She sat
down with a pen
Thinking
she’d write to her love.
So
overwhelmed was she
That
she couldn’t think of a line
Words
vanished from her mind.
In
desperation she could see
On the
empty page
Life
unfold one by one
Like a
reel.
She
pondered..
trying
to pen them down.
Alas!
She could only feel.
Just
then the doorbell rang.
She
rushed to the door bare feet.
On
opening it she saw
It was
‘him’…Oh wow! What a treat!
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Crazy About You
Like a
sentimental idiot
I sit
here
Thinking
of all the events
That
took place
When
you were around
Going
over each card
A
million, zillion time…
Daydreaming
all the while.
I was
aware that you can be blinded
And be
crazy in love.
but
when it actually happens
you end
up feeling so helpless.
It’s
like losing all control
Over
one’s own self
Wandering
like a lost soul
In
thoughts and actions on the whole.
What’s
come over me?
I don’t
really know..
I think
I’m crazy about you.
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As Long as I Have You!
As long
as I have you nothing else matters.
I can
surmount all odds
I can
conquer grief and tackle all problems
I can
fight every difficulty
As long
as I have You!
I can
be happy anywhere
Be the
place dull or bright
Be
there hail be there storm
Be
there rain be there snow
As long
as I have You!
We can
work things out together
No
matter what’s wrong
Whether
it’s the falling sky
Or just
a day forlorn
As long
as I have You!
I can
climb up the rainbow
Or
pluck the stars that glow
Let
imagination go wild
Or act
like a little child
As long
as I have You!
Lyrics
keep going crazy -the words have lost control
My
world seems topsy turvy - I seem to have lost all hold
Yet
nothing seems to matter
As long
as I have You!
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You
I told
you what I thought of you before.
I told
you all the nasty names I called you with.
All the
hatred, swears and curses I showered lavishly on you all this while!
Little
did I know that one fine day
I’ll be
a hopeless romantic about you…
Well!
You’ve done it now in case you didn’t know.
It’s
become impossible for me to concentrate
On
anything but you!
Each
and every thought
Every
moment of the day
Is
completely filled with your memories.
Your
face is there before my eyes and I dream with them open all the time.
What do
I do?
I miss
you so much that you can’t ever imagine
I’ve
never felt this way…
It’s
crazy and yet so secure
I’m
sure.
And so
everyday
I thank
my stars for You…
On the Path of Life
Do walk
with me
Hand in
hand
Be
times good or bad
Be the
going rough
Or be
it tough
On the
path of life!
We’ll
find our own niche’
Without
a glitch
We’ll
know the joy of living.
In our
togetherness
We will
learn the art of sharing and giving.
If the
road gets narrow or long
Do
always remember
Together
we belong
So do
reach out
And
never doubt
Do walk
hand in hand
On the
path of life
…with
me!
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Tell me
How
does it feel to be loved?
How
does it feel to lie back
On a
cool summer night
And
count the endless stars?
How
does it feel to know
That
somewhere, someone
Misses
you every moment?
How
does it feel to be in love?
Thinking
of someone you never knew
Wondering
about them all the time
And
dream of them so often.
It’s
wonderful to feel secure
To know
you’ll not be lonely anymore.
Tell
me…do you feel the same?
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Care
In a
crazy world
Have
you ever thought
You’d
come across
People
who care?
When
you’re down in the dumps
Your
spirits are low
There
are those who hold your hand.
Times
when you
Didn’t
even tell them
That
something was wrong.
They’d
just understand
and then
Without
mentioning a word to you
They’d
do the best at hand.
Teeny
weeny actions
Here
and there
Wondrous
surprises
You’d
love to share.
They’d
make each effort
To put
things right
Just to
make your future bright.
You
feel lucky to have people who care…
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Desperation
Here I
am in a crazy world.
Just
ended up here.
A place
so alien.
One day
I happened to open my eyes
To a
world full of strangers.
Not a
day has passed
When I
want to run fast
And
back to you your strong arms.
I hate
it all this different world
Although
it’s full of charms.
The
length of space
And
time between
Will it
ever surpass?
I wish
I’ll be able to
Be with
you
At
last!
Peep Within
How
does one run away
From
one’ s own self?
When
past pulls you hard
Into
the depths of known
You
hold yourself tight.
The
present
Stares
you in the eyes.
The
unknown vastness
Of the
future
Scares
you no end.
Will
you ever
Let go
Of the
things you cherish
Even
today?
Maybe, maybe
not..
It all
depends.
On
What?
No
answer to that.
“Have
faith and hope,” they tell you so
Isn’t
what they said in the past?
What
are you going to do about it?
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I Cannot Explain
What do
you say?
When
asked repeatedly
Of what
is it
That
you see in someone.
They
pester
And you
try
What’s so
special
And
what’s unique
And
what’s the reason why…
The
answers to their constant demands
Has
really no limitation.
All you
can say now
At this
point is
‘Love has no explanation!’
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Hang on
Hang on
a minute
I need
your help.
Didn’t
you promise to walk with me
On the
sharp thorns of life?
Didn’t
you say you’d stand by me
Through
the thick and thin?
Didn’t
you make the predictions of
What
I’ll do and won’t?
In case
you’ve forgotten
I’m
still around
Standing
now all alone.
All I
need here at this point
Is the
extra ounce of courage
The one
you always promised me
the one
that you encourage.
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Confused as Ever
What is
right?
Who are
we anyway to decide?
What
makes you feel
Whoever
decided ‘what is right’
Is the
right person to decide?
Who am
I?
I
thought I knew that a while ago.
“Time”-
does it matter if it has passed?
Aren’t
we here in any case to vile it away?
Want..competition..desire
..ambition
What’s
the difference if you have one or don’t?
The
goals begin and end up here.
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Hold On
Capture
every rainbow,
Catch
every falling star.
Save
every firefly.
You
never know
When on
a rainy day
You
might need them all.
Troubles
come in a row
They
can’t be predicted
They
never stay forever
In time
they all go.
So
cheer up today
And
never lose heart
See the
silver lining
Around
every dark cloud
Wait
for fair weather patiently
Till
the music gets loud.
Joy
will come easy
To you
and to me
Spread
wings of hope
And
mirth you shall see.
The Best is Yet to Come
It’s
all right
Why
bother about
What
could have happened
If
it did not happen?
Why
blame ourselves
It’s
not our fault!
And
who knows
Maybe
whatever happened
actually
happened for the best.
And
if hope and happiness
Were
dependent on such occurrences
Few
people in the world
Would
be happy today
So,
don’t bother your head
And
never lose hope
‘cause
the Best is Yet to Come!
My dearest friend, so happy to see your lovely precious poems on your blog! As always, the words are simple but the way they are used are beautiful. God bless you, and looking forward to reading more!
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